Why do I do it to myself?

I'm a silly girl, thats why. I blog stalk. I read peoples blogs that I don't even know. I sit, read, and bawl. patrickandashley.blogspot.com is where it started. Someone had posted a video on facebook off of this blog that brought me to it. Now I check it regularly and read all of their new posts. They talk about their lives, the passing of their child, and the grieving process. I have had two people close to me lose children. I never know what to do to help them. I wonder sometimes if I should share my blog findings with them or if it would just make things worse reading about someone else's loss. Tonight I started reading stories off of http://www.agoodgrief.com/index.php I hurt. My heart, my head(from trying not to cry), and my nose(from blowing). I love my babies so much. They are my world, even when they make me want to scream. I cant even imagine how lost I would be if they were ever suddenly stolen away.