Not very lighthearted.

So far I have been trying to keep this blog very light hearted. Just letting people know whats going on etc. However it is time to write a post that wont be. I think I need to just complain. Its therapy for me. I have chosen not to write about Lucy Latta passing away til now. It is something that hurts me so much. I think the reason I was holding it away was because I felt like maybe I shouldnt be as upset as I am. But I am. I am upset. I am angry. I am hurting for her family. I just want answers. I know that she is a perfect little angel now in heaven, but why? Why let her fight so hard? Why let her go through so much, just to take her? Why did she not die of her disease, but from damage to her lungs? I guess I just thought it would never happen. That the bone marrow transplant would work and she would get better. The transplant did work. Why is she gone? Never once did I think that they would be coming home from Seattle without her. Never did I think that the little baby, only two weeks older then Grayden would die. I guess I was just in denial, like I am now. Its like its not real. However, I cry everyday. Im not sure why. Maybe its just the simple fact that I wouldnt know what to do with myself if I ever lost Grayden. I hurt for their family so much. I wish I knew what to do to help them. For those who have no idea what I am talking about... withloveforlucy.com

I like to ride my bicycle.

Connor loves to ride his bike. He never rode his tricycle very much so he struggles with leg strength. We have been out a few times though and he is getting better. Next summer he will be a pro.

Connors 4th birthday

Connors fourth birthday was August 16. Better late then never right? He was very excited. He loves birthdays. It doesnt matter whos it is. I think he liked the fact though that he was the one who got to actually open and take home the presents. We started off with pizza then birthday cake. The cake had five big balloons made out of frosting. Connor wanted the blue one and that was all he ate as far as cake goes. He is very in to Thomas the train right now. He received two tracks that hooked together, a movie, a book, some Cars stuff, and a new bike!!

The things kids say...

James and I love to watch the Olympics. James more so then I, but it is still on almost constantly at my house. The other day while I was working, James was watching rowing. Connor looked at the screen for a minute, taking notice of the boats. He then went upstairs to play with his toys. A little while later James was watching a swimming event. Connor came down, looked at the TV again and laughed. He then said, "Daddy, they lost their boats!"

James and I decided to take a Sunday drive yesterday. On the way home we to drove by one of the construction sites that his company is working on. Connor kept telling me he was hungry. I would brush it off becuase it hadnt been that long since we had eaten. He was persistant. So I told him that he would have to wait. We were going to Grandma and Papas for dinner and he could wait. He said it again, so in frustration I said, "Connor! You will have to wait, we dont have any food!" It was then he replied with, "Well McDonalds does!"

Starting over

Okay, hopefully this time I will really keep up with this. There has just been so much going on with life I havent found the time. However, I just quit Chilis. YAY. I now will be home in the evenings to enjoy family time. I will also have weekends if I schedule my hair appointments right. This last weekend we were able to go camping with some friends. It was a lot of fun. That is something we NEVER do. I could name the times on one hand that we have been camping since the kids have been born. Twice actually. Hopefully now we can do more of that kind of stuff. Im excited for all of the family adventures that are to come.