Sick babies.

I dont think anything makes me feel more helpless then having both of my boys sick at the same time. Connor is finally getting to the age where he understands being sick and what he needs to do. But poor Grayden. I held him in my arms almost all night while the dozed in and out, throwing up all over the both of us multiple times. He doesnt understand what is happening and all I can do is clean him up and try to make him as comfortable as possible. Thankfully their periods of throwing up only overlapped about an hour. Grayden started at about 9pm and lasted till 3. Connor started at 2 and went til 7 or 8. They are both doing a ton better now. I think it was just a 24 hr bug. Thank goodness!

New post

I dont really have much to say. It has just been awhile since I have posted so here is a little update. Not much has been going on. I have been painting more and hope to really get more into it soon. As I complete paintings that I like I will post them so you can see what I have been up to.
The dividends and energy check came this month. Hallelujah. It was nice to get some bills paid off, and a 52'' screen t.v never hurts. We just have to find a stand for it now. One that is tall enough that the boys cant get their finger prints on it and that is sturdy enough to hold it. We were really picky at first as to what we wanted. We have checked every furniture store in Anchorage and have yet to find it so we are being less picky now.
The leaves have all started turning here. Its very beautiful. Its getting cold though and I dont like that. I wish the fall lasted longer like it did in Ohio. It was absolutely beautiful during this time of year. It was like being in a movie.
Well, I guess thats it for today. Hope everybody is doing well.

Graydens stitches.

I think the worst experience I ever had as a mom was when Connor was two. I was on my way to work when I got a call from my sister who was watching him. She was frantic and said Connor had hit his head and that they were going to the ER. When I arrived I had to sit there while 4 grown held him down and stitched my childs forhead. It made me sick. That experience was replaced by Grayden and his stitches. This time it wasnt because he hit his head. It was because he startled our old family dog and he bit him on the head. My immediate thought was that we were putting the dog down. After 10 days in quarentine my heart softened for my husbands "best friend" and I said he could come home as long as he became an outside dog again. Grayden was fine. He quit crying before we even got to the hospital. However he was quite upset at being held down and stitched. Thank goodness he wasnt as strong as Connor and the process went quickly. He now is healed up and has a cute little scar to match Connors. After time Im sure it will almost completely disapear as Connors has. His is very faint. With two little boys its always something. I wonder whats next.:)

This was the first year that we got to go to the fair as a family. These pictures are from two seperate days. Connor had a blast riding all the rides and Grayden enjoyed all the new sights. I enjoyed the food. :) I think James was just along for the ride. It was a lot of fun and we are excited to go again next year.

Not very lighthearted.

So far I have been trying to keep this blog very light hearted. Just letting people know whats going on etc. However it is time to write a post that wont be. I think I need to just complain. Its therapy for me. I have chosen not to write about Lucy Latta passing away til now. It is something that hurts me so much. I think the reason I was holding it away was because I felt like maybe I shouldnt be as upset as I am. But I am. I am upset. I am angry. I am hurting for her family. I just want answers. I know that she is a perfect little angel now in heaven, but why? Why let her fight so hard? Why let her go through so much, just to take her? Why did she not die of her disease, but from damage to her lungs? I guess I just thought it would never happen. That the bone marrow transplant would work and she would get better. The transplant did work. Why is she gone? Never once did I think that they would be coming home from Seattle without her. Never did I think that the little baby, only two weeks older then Grayden would die. I guess I was just in denial, like I am now. Its like its not real. However, I cry everyday. Im not sure why. Maybe its just the simple fact that I wouldnt know what to do with myself if I ever lost Grayden. I hurt for their family so much. I wish I knew what to do to help them. For those who have no idea what I am talking about... withloveforlucy.com

I like to ride my bicycle.

Connor loves to ride his bike. He never rode his tricycle very much so he struggles with leg strength. We have been out a few times though and he is getting better. Next summer he will be a pro.

Connors 4th birthday

Connors fourth birthday was August 16. Better late then never right? He was very excited. He loves birthdays. It doesnt matter whos it is. I think he liked the fact though that he was the one who got to actually open and take home the presents. We started off with pizza then birthday cake. The cake had five big balloons made out of frosting. Connor wanted the blue one and that was all he ate as far as cake goes. He is very in to Thomas the train right now. He received two tracks that hooked together, a movie, a book, some Cars stuff, and a new bike!!